Evening Comes
Psalms 103:1-5 (Good News Translation)
Praise the Lord, my soul! All my being, praise his
holy name 2 Praise the Lord, my soul, and do not forget how kind he
is. 3 He forgives all my sins and heals all my
diseases. 4 He keeps me from the grave and blesses
me with love and mercy.5 He fills my life[b] with good things, so that I stay young and
strong like an eagle.
Oh it has been so long since I have written here and I could
give lots of reasons as to why, but I won’t.
I just haven’t for various reasons and at the end of the day they are
just excuses if I was being honest. This
summer has been hard! Being separated is
not fun and is super scary. Mable’s
autism is a lot to handle some days and the unknown for her life is super
scary. My niece having a rare brain
cancer with 50% chance of survival and seeing the affect it has on my sister,
her husband, and their boys is horrible and super scary! Various other close family & friends struggling
with health issues, financial issues and life’s hard times is hard to
understand and super scary. Some days I
would like nothing more than to just climb in bed, not encourage others, lend
an ear or anything else. Basically just
hide from the world and all the troubles that unfold each day. If I was being honest some days I do hide,
not in bed because having children prevents that from happening, and try to
escape my troubles in life. I have had
pity parties for myself and jumped on the band wagon of “I don’t want to”
thinking. However, at the end of the day
this is what I remember,
2 Corinthians:3-4 (Good News Translation)
3 Let us give thanks to the God and Father of our
Lord Jesus Christ, the merciful Father, the God from whom all help comes!4 He helps us in all our troubles, so that we are able to
help others who have all kinds of troubles, using the same help that we
ourselves have received from God.
How can my faith grow if I only have blessings? How can I be relatable and help others if I
have no troubles and sorrows of my own?
How can I show God’s love for me if I am “hiding” from the world? The
answer I come to is I can’t be all that God created me to be when I am focused
on myself and all the issues that happen in my life.
Luke 11:33-36 (Good News Translation)
33 No one lights a lamp and then hides it or puts
it under a bowl;[a] instead, it is put on the lampstand, so
that people may see the light as they come in.34
Your eyes are like a lamp for the body. When your eyes are sound, your whole
body is full of light; but when your eyes are no good, your whole body will be
in darkness.35 Make certain, then, that the light in
you is not darkness.36 If your whole body is full of
light, with no part of it in darkness, it will be bright all over, as when a
lamp shines on you with its brightness.
At the end of the day, I have so much to be grateful for and
today is no different! Today, our
precious Phoebe’s MRI came back clear (no tumors) and she continues the fight
against AT/RT. Both of my amazing girls
speak and know God’s truth, want to serve, and love being plugged into their
church youth group. God continues to
open doors for me to teach them, encourage them, and raise them in His truth on
their level of understanding. I am
surrounded by extremely loving, encouraging, and supportive family and friends. But most of all, God is NEVER out of reach or
too busy for me and my troubles. He is
just waiting on me, which is pretty awesome!
So I leave on this note because I am singing when the
evening comes :)
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